(In Rogue's defense, there were times where everything just became too much for Eddie. This was one of those times, and it was easily the most volatile he's ever felt. Maybe it wasn't perfect advice, but if anything, her pointing out that he didn't want to ruin his friendships over this would be the one essential thing that would ultimately take root from this conversation. Because Rogue was right: he didn't want to lose his friends.
The future image hurt a lot. It hurt a lot because Eddie felt a lot, and there was a lot to be hurt by, but all the same, it was an image and his friends were his Here And Now Reality. He didn't know those strangers that abandoned him.
It's something that would come to keep him up the next few nights.
He opens his hand up to look at the faded scar across his palm from their original promise. He looks up at Rogue, looking tired, and far too old for any twelve year old.)
I think faith is my only option right now. It just...I can't talk to them right now. (He frowns, staring at his knees, before looking directly at Rogue.)
Does that make sense? It hurts to not go find Richie. He- He's...I don't like him being alone. He...doesn't...do well when he's alone and someone's gotta take care of him. And Bill...he's already got all this guilt...and Stan...
(Eddie scarcely knows how to deal with that. He closes his mouth and grinds his teeth, thinking.)
I want to be with them. But I don't know if I should. I feel like. We all need some time to think. Does that...make sense?
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Date: 2018-01-02 04:54 pm (UTC)The future image hurt a lot. It hurt a lot because Eddie felt a lot, and there was a lot to be hurt by, but all the same, it was an image and his friends were his Here And Now Reality. He didn't know those strangers that abandoned him.
It's something that would come to keep him up the next few nights.
He opens his hand up to look at the faded scar across his palm from their original promise. He looks up at Rogue, looking tired, and far too old for any twelve year old.)
I think faith is my only option right now. It just...I can't talk to them right now. (He frowns, staring at his knees, before looking directly at Rogue.)
Does that make sense? It hurts to not go find Richie. He- He's...I don't like him being alone. He...doesn't...do well when he's alone and someone's gotta take care of him. And Bill...he's already got all this guilt...and Stan...
(Eddie scarcely knows how to deal with that. He closes his mouth and grinds his teeth, thinking.)
I want to be with them. But I don't know if I should. I feel like. We all need some time to think. Does that...make sense?